Jeff Introduces Himself

Jeff Poff 390966
WSPF, PO BOX 1000

Boscobel, WI 53805

Four New Poems by Jeff Poff Start  2017

4 poems: https://ffupstuff.files.wordpress.com/2017/02/jeff-poff-poems.pdf
 

I'm a man in search of a ???…Well, 4-the moment only a friend.
Somebody I can talk to about life's trial, triumphs and Passions
Somebody who understand the hard knocks and life sometime bringz
A woman who can appreciate good conversation and company
From a man not a boy but a man who lovez and adores a woman's companionship,
A woman who can Relate and Feel my pain, strugglez, and constant life or death situations that a man in My position faces daily bejind this wallz unjustly.

Note from blogger: We have below substituted letters for names in Jeff's story. We have all documents proving his story and would be glad to make copies of court and police reports etc, available un- edited to those who wish to help Jeff.

HI , my name is Jeff Poff and as you can see I am Incarcerated, a victim of Diz so called system. In September 30th, 2001 while I was hanging out at home at home With my Father Jeff Thompson Curtz out in New Berlin, WI I gotta call from my girl friend (A) whom I had met just a month before when we and the mother of my two kids ( down in Florida) had separate and I ended up moving to Milwaukee with her.

Around 10:30 I got a call from (A) claiming that while she was hanging out on the South Side Of Milwaukee at her girlfriends house , a dude by the name of (C) had pistol whooped her and had threatened to kill her whenever he tried to seduce her and she declined.

I must admit that I could care less weather or not (A)'s accusations at the time were in fact true had specifically since I had Warned her personally earlier in the day not to go back to the South Side anymore!

But do to the fact that (A) had another lover in her life and was constantly getting "high" I decided to say fuckit and let her go so I could get my shit together and go back home down to Florida with my girl and kids.

Ms (A) mostive called at least 3 or 4 different times that night telling me the same story over and over before she decided to put this kid that I Knew from the hood named (D) on the phone who then proceeded to tell me how he had begged this chump (C) 4- ms (A)’s life and that I should really consider letting her cum home before this individual came back and killed her.

Now a whore or should I say a “putana “ iz a whore no matter what language you may try to put it or say it, but a whore born the daughter of a (Mob bozz) you NEVER want to treat as such otherwise you’ll pay the ultimate price believe me I know my only wordz to (A) that night were “Get your azz home now.”

Later (A)finally decided to show up at my father’s house all drunk and high, getting loud and stupid untill my father got so fucking pist off he ended up kicking the both of us out.

Around 3 or 3:30 a.m. me and (A)arrived at the South Side of Milwaukee now on the hunt -4-this (C) carractor who I was already aquiented with very well do to past bad history between me and most of his guys including (3guys), whom had both “set me up” back in early 2000 with two different homicide cases that they had committed then told the police that I was the one who had done it, luckily enough I ended up beating both cases.

This had come about after I arrived in Milwaukee in 2000 and had threatened to kill (e) so called leader and co-founder of the Latin King Nation in Milwaukee in the early 70’s when he became a well known “fed Snitch” that raped my Father’s 4-year –old little girl along with some F.B.I. agents (names deleted)

Anyway, early in September 2001, I had given (E) a Final Ultimatum to either testfy against the Fedz 4-the sins that they had committed or die 4 his own. He decided to take one last shot at me with his guyz and the F.B.I. and tryied taking me out the game, but instead of waiting around 4 –them to cum to me I decided to bring the drama to them like I ALWAYZ did from day one. I arrived at the scene in Jan 2000.

After we got some food at one of the restaurants in the hood on 16th /Cesar Chavez we went to a gaz station on 6th /Lapham to buy (A)'s cat some cat food where we ended up running into a well known prostitute named (F) who after I had explained to her what (C) had done to (A) she suggested that we give her a ride to see if she could take us to where this chump might be at.

After driving throu a couple of spots where C miteve been hanging out at including where A had been earlier in the night .We ended up dropping F at 8th /Greenfield where she said she had to turn a “trick”, me and A then went to G on 14th /Mitchell where I personally had seen Hugo hanging out at selling dope, after we arrived there and explained to G what was going on she then suggested that I hang around and Cool off untill she could talk to C herself.

Then as soon as we sat down to eat our food some girl had come in with some older Mexican dude that drove a black chevy low rider truck talking about they had just copped some (rocks) from Hugo about 5 Minutes ago at B's

I didn’t even say a word to them I just told A “lets go” and got into the jeep with no pistol on me or anything else to defend myself with. As soon as I pulled upon the scene and parked next to B house next to a red Buick that I know belonged to another gang banger that lived on the scene and associated with my enemiez. I saw C and a (G)16 year old “ enforcer” 4- the Kings who later became another fed snitch both robbing a Mexican male at gun point in the middle of the yard that faced at least 3 or 4 different houses in the alleyway on 14th and Greenfield which later became a murder scene.

What happened next happened so fast that sometimez I wake upin the middle of the night still thinking that maybe all this is just a bad dream.

I remember getting out of the jeep and seeing this Mexican male on his knees with his hands on top of his head while (G) held a black semi automatic to the man’s head over his hands while Hugo went through the man’s pockets.

At 1st I thought no big deal just another dope fiend getting robbed out of his money like I had seen done a thousand times allready by this same individuals, aint no body gonna get hurt just the – that I’m about to whoop 4 disrespecting the woman I was dating.

But then as I started to get closer yelling at this –(C) to cum hollar at me in “spanol” the man that was getting robbed all of a sudden “got up” and tried to make a run 4-it . G gun then flashed once shooting the man in the head as he fell to the ground screaming like a wounded animal.

Sometimes I blame myself for the death of this innocent man. Sometimez I even wonder if getting blamed 4-this man’s death by those who killed him and the woman I tried to defend that night wasn’t my destiny all along? Anyway I know that I should’ve called the police and reported what I saw but with 2 other homicide cases on my back allready that I knew I didn’t commit, calling the copz that night seemed to be the worst decision I could’ve made all my life.

That night after the shooting I knew that I had been seen by the others arriving and leaving the scene of the crime including (list), all this individuals instead of telling the truth chose to lie and implicate me in this matter and set free those who commited the crime.

I expected do to the fact that I was an oursider” cuming into a neighborhood going against the grain, but that I didn’t expect was 4-the woman I had allowed in my life and cum to defend to put the final nail in my coffin.
My name is Blaze and this is my story.



Wordz to Live by
If it’s got to be
Then it’s up to me
So powerfull a Revelation in such a simple and yet
Painfully obvious Truth.
A god iz not cuming to “save me “ or make Right the
Wrongz of others , good iz not about to spring frum
bad nor vurtue from evil and the only thing that will
happen to those who treat me cruelly iz that they’ll
“Prosper” upon my “misery.” Diz are the TRUE lessons
Of life
! A Revolution iz here the Revolution iz NOW!
Do Something to sustain it
Stand up 4- something or die!
Begin by writing a letter to the governor and
Understand my protest, then hold a fast and get
all those letters mailed to the governor , media
Radio , etc. and find a NON violent way to make the set me free.
Stop buying into the “propaganda” that my cause is worthless and that my life is over, that I’m worthless and that they’ve the right to control me and ruin inocent lives and dreams!
Stop cowering down before Diz “paper tigers” and giant shadows cast by imperious Runts.
Abandon your fears and be driven by
The simple truth!
If it’s got to be
Then it’s up to me

Blood of a Slave
Hart of a King

A True Story
By
Egypt
2010


I was concieved in sin
Cursed since birth
The only thing that I’m sure about life are the
Constant striuggles that I’ve with my “demons” and
The way I hurt so deeply in my Soul
The good word calls it a “generational curse”
All my ancestors were either King pens , drug
Lordz or whores, now it’s up to me to break
Diz evil circle or my little girl iz the one
who’s gona get hurt!
Oh Lord have mercy on me and teach me thy
Wayz, give me the strength to be “humble”
And please please don’t let me live like Diz
When I reach the grave.

Wordsz from a Fallen angel
Dedicated to my little girl

BLOOD of a SLAVE, HART of a KING/ chapters one thru six

chapter one-

On Aug 29th 2001 As I was being released from the Marion county Jail in ocala,fl,A sheriff deputy by the name of"Walker "said the following words as he escorted me to the front door!

(Hey poff)he said to me calling me by my adopted name that was given to me by Joseph d.poff back in the early 80's when he married my mother Aurora E.Saenz,And we lived in Panama (my country of origin), then later decided to bring me and my siblings to the united States!

(Why)don't u just get ur self a job,build u a family, and stay out of those damn streets (Boy),He said to me in a real deep southern country accent, before u catch another case,and end up loosing ur life,u know that ur running out of" 2nd-chances"!

Now after what must've been at least a(100)Trips to this county jail alone since I 1st moved to Florida back in the late 80's untill i left fla in late 2001,this was actually only the (2nd time )in my life that I had made the decision to give up the "street life"and not end up like most Guy's I've known,"Dead or in Prison 4-life"!

Once was back in the early 90's when I had already been arrested (Twice) As an Adult, And was facing prison time and the judge gave me an option to either (go to prison or go in the Army),then when I had been ready to quit just so I could go back to living the so called street life,I decided to give the military a Chance after my mother Aurora told me over the phone that there wasn't Shit to come  back home to and Sgt.Morales,(my drill Sgt) literally helped transformed my life!

Now even doe I did ended up leaving the military earlier then the 3-yrs that I had signed up for as a( combat engineer  )do to my personal believes when it cums to going to( War )Against other countries that sometimes we shouldn't get involved with, I did ended up getting an"Honorable discharge "from the military which I'll always be very proudly of !

Anyways As u  can read from my Story  as I go on I did ended up making a" Million "Other mistakes since my military service and ended up hurting those I love the most,but the one thing that the military did teach me to do that I'll never forguet is to Never quit despite what ever challenges one may be facing!

(I remember) During basic training,And Sgt.Morales had caught me on the phone one day with out permission,and gave me (2)different hour's of guard duty which I failed to do so during the 2nd hour(3-4)in the morning, and the very next day when Sgt.Morales showed up after we had just gotten through eating breakfast, and were cuming out of the chow hall,he called out my name by saying,(where u at poff)then when I responded, he said to me,go beat ur face against the wall,which meant(,upside down push ups)Intended to make me throw up my breakfast!

I wish that I could say that this was the end of Sgt.Morales wrath against me,but unfortunately 4-me this was only the beginning!

In that movie," The officer, and a gentle man"When Richard geere got sweated by his drill Sgt during basic training had Nothing on the way Sgt.Morales Smoked me!

See Until I graduated from basic training which was now about only 2- Weeks away or so  when i got into trouble about the whole phone thing ,Sgt.Morales made the M-60(aka)"the War Hog"which is a fully Auto weapon that weights about 50-pds my best Friend!

Front,Back,go, is a famous exercise in basic training commonly used by drill Sgt when soldiers do something wrong which is hard enough to do in it self,but ad a 50-pd machine gun to it out in the snow,rain,or in a room with all ur gear on,and the( heat )purposely turned all the way up is almost impossible!

Talking about almost drying and giving up,there wasant one day that went by when I was going through all this hell with Sgt.Morale's that I didn't think of both,and yet somehow I made the Decision to never quit!

Then on the day when I  finally graduated from BASIC while other soldiers enjoyed time with their families, and I stood there all alone Sgt.Morales walked up to me,and skook my hand,and I remember him saying this exact words,Now ur a Soldier Poff!

Then when ever I finished with(A.I.T)Training at ft.Leonard wood,mo and I got shipped to my 1st duty station at  Ft.Kambel Ky,101st.Airborne division where most soldiers have died from during the( 1st Iraq,and 2nd War) ,I quit after receiving orders to go to"Somalia "Where that other famous movie(, Black hawk down)Was made about my unit,and soldiers that I met before they were all tragically killed!

See it wasn't that I got scared or anything like that made me leave the army, but it was because of the way that I had seen my mother Aurora in a damn wheel chair  after getting hit by a car by some (white boy) riding around in a stolen car when I went home for Christmas on leave that year in DEC 1992 ,that  made me decide to leave the military, and go home!

 Even My own mother has always thrown in my face my sudden departure from the military even doe I  only did what i did for her,and would literally be (Dead) today if I  would've stayed in ,even the judge on the case for which I sit in prison for today Jacqueline d.schellinger understood my reason for leaving the military, and even reasoned with me when the way I was brought up by my mother ,and the many man she was involved with (abused me )came up during my sentencing report and even then I defended my mother's( Honor) with gusto against this dope fiend/racist ass judge who never met my mother before,then I got (80-yrs)In prison when I continued to profess my Innocence, and told the judge that I couldn't be sorry for a crime I didn't committed!

Anyway that day when I walked through the last of the security doors ,and into the lobby area of the Marion county jail, sitting in a corner was the mother of my two kids Kimberly a.Curtin who through all of my previous jail or prison stays  in the past had never once been there for my

 release,but there she was with that look in her eyes that said it all,(I'm here 4-u now Jeff,but only 4-this once, and only time), As if all along she knew exactly what my destiny was gonna be!

Then we walked out the jail( together )hand in hand down the long corridor leading to the parking lot ,under the hot Florida sun as it shinned on my girls beautiful /almost angelic face,Her fire red hair and emerald green eyes that seemed to look right  through my cold Soul,As I remember looking up at the beautiful blue skies, and telling my self this exact words,Fuck the streets, I'm going home to be a family man!

Little that I knew doe that"Destiny"must've had other plans 4-my life because as soon as we got home,and we're ready to go to sleep for the night,A damn demon in the form of a woman named( Jody )showed up to our house,and 4-Ever changed the direction of my life!

End of chp-1

chapter 2

Anyways that day after the mother of my kids picked me up from the Marion county jail,and we're now sitting in her car,(A 2-door late 90's Mazda that look more like a well used Hoopty),I remember being approach by a female sheriff deputy that knocked on our window, and told us to move it along after me,and the mother of my kids got a little  bit carried away while I  had started to undo the zipper in her pants,and we finally got the Chance to be alone for the 1st time in almost 2-yrs,then she leaned into my ear,and I remember her whispering this exact words,don't worry about it Jeff we'll finish this when we get home ,besides Right now we're late picking up the kid's from day care/School which is exactly when I then started thinking about my daughter (Grace),and decided to ask my girl weather or not she mite remember me as her Father?

See not only had I missed the birth of my little girl  back in Oct-1997do to the fact that(ICE)Had me under their custody, and almost got  deported back to my country of origin"Panama "where I was born at and originally raised  until I came into this country back in 1984, But also do to the fact that me,and the mother of my kids  were constantly  Separating do to the deep racial issues that (still ) exist within her family ,along with me dealing with my own demon's that I had been struggling since childhood which then caused me to always " Run Away"back,and forth from Florida to Milwaukee, and Chicago ,(Once Again) in Jan-2000 I ended up moving  away to Milwaukee with my real father Jeff Thompson cortz whom I had met for the 1st time sometime in the late 80's,and had always denied me as his own Son!

(Do u think that Grace will remember me)was the exact question that I remember asking the mother of my kids that day as we pulled into the(CFCC)Central Florida community college campus parking lot where she was currently attending school at under the single parent program to become a teacher, and my daughter received free daycare!

"I don't know Jeff",Was all that she said to me before getting out of the car,and I went to face one of my many" DEMON'S "!

As I stood there in the middle of the day care center literally sweating bullets waiting for my little girl to be brought out to me in front of all this " White People "that kept steering at me like the true convict that I now was instead of( the good guy )that I was portraying to be,Out of the corner of my eye I saw the most beautiful little" Angel" I had ever seen before Standing there from about 10-feet away steering at me with those same exact (challenging eyes) I had seen in her mother earlier in the day when I was being released from jail,then after what it felt like eternity standing there when in reality was probably  only minutes if not seconds  out of no where a small miracle occurred and as if everything made  perfect sense in the mind of my little girl, She started running toward me

 saying daddy,daddy, over,and over again until she reached me and I  picked her little body up in my arms, and carried her outside with (Tears  of Blood) falling down both of our faces!

Once outside I asked the mother of my kids if my daughter could ride upfront with me instead of putting her in her car seat in the back do to the fact that not only I could literally (feel )my daughter hanging on to me for dear life,but Also once I did I knew in my hart that all hell was gonna break loose which is exactly what happened as soon as I did!

Any way as predicted as soon as I decided to place my little girl in her car seat in the back she started screaming/Crying with so much Rage in her voice that even to this day almost( 18-yrs)After the fact I still  Wake up in the middle of the night having nightmares that feel so real that take  me

 right back to that day,and literally make me break down like a little boy!

This fact's have been disputed by the mother of my kids many times in the past when I've attempted to tell my story in order to hurt me and erase every single memory that(We)miteve ever created, but since I do happened to Remember Everything that ever tooked place between us,she can longer hurt me anymore or stop me from telling the world about what I considered to have been some of the best memories(We) ever created!

On the way to pick up my son jerred from his Catholic school at blessed eternity cathedral of hwy-27th where we use to attend Mass at sometimes on Sun's led by father Pat a personal friend of the curtin family, I  really tried talking  to my little girl in order to calm her down,and make thing's Right between us,but then every time that I did she would start screaming/Crying all over again as if she was trying to Tell me that I had betrayed her all over again whenever I had been forced to place her on her car seat per her own mother's order's!!

Just leave her alone Jeff, she'll be alright, was the only thing that the mother of my kid's said to me as we drove the rest of the way to my son's school in occurred silence!

Anyway when we arrived at my son's school I tried hiding behind the mother of my kid's car in order to surprise him,but because his school was on top of a hill facing us he saw me before I could see him,and he let me know right away, I see u dad,he said to me as soon as he reached the car,and I gave him a big o hug telling him how much I had missed/loved him, then he said to me,are u gonna stay with us"this time",As if he was all ready use to seen me cum/go on a reg basis, and this was just another part of life which broke my hart and I told him(yes)As me,and the mother of my kid's had agreed to do so prior to my released from prison despite her own families wishes, and protest which they have made very clear. Were totally against!

On the way home we all sang along to the country music that was playing on the radio per the mother of my kids request which at the time I only tolerated because we couldn't find anything else on the radio and is something I can barley even do today do to all the damn"Memories "Most song's are related to her,and our family!

Before we got home doe we decided to stop at the local gas station by the house out in the country on hwy-27th called (Quick King) where I remember buying some things to make dinner for the kid's ,along with a Pk. Of Newport 100's cigarette's, and a Pk. Of large Trojan  condoms per the mother of my kids request which to me seemed kind of odd especially since I Never wore condoms because they  always broke, and I ended up getting her pregnant on accident one time that then caused us to drive all the way to Orlando,and got a very discreet abortion!

After feeding the kid's some " Arroz con Frijoles ",my daughters Fav at the time, And then putting her,and her brother in the bathroom for their nightly bath,Me,and my girl then quickly snoked into the kitchen which was  right down the hallway from the bathroom where we left the door wide open so we could hear the kid's, And we  finally got to make sweet love!

(I Remember) that Fuck me look that my girl had in her eyes that day as she quickly undressed me,and with out even saying a word to each other assumed my Fav sexual position (Hands Down/Ass up),As I  spread her beautiful thick Ass cheeks apart,and eat her pussy/Ass from behind,  then slide my  big black manhood inside her already very wet pink pussy lips which drove me absolutely crazy  to watch as it always did in the past when we would make luv!

I can still remember the way she taste, felt,and even the way her female scent still lingers on my manhood today!

I can't even remember how many times in the past I've attempted writing my story as I'm right now,and  in the mist of it I've had to stop,and( in my mind)I've made luv to my girl a (Million) times More!

There's a movie that's about (labor day),and a scape convict played by Josh R.and Kate w. That plays a broken hearted woman and in the span of only (3-days) they built a special bond that lasted a lifetime!

See when I came home on Aug 29th,2001Me,and my girl built a special bond over labor day weekend that in my  mind still very much alive today, and even doe this may only be the case with me alone,in my hart (I know) that I'll see them All one day,I feel this in my very own soul just as I always use to do in the past when all seemed to have been lost,and somehow " Allah "Would make thing's right again!

Anyway after gone several more rounds of intense luv making between me/my girl that included once in the shower where she used the shower head to play with her clit while I did her from behind looking in the mirror watching each other have sex,and another in the bedroom where we only did(69),and came into each others mouths, Right as were about to go to sleep  for the night with my little girl now laying right next to me,the damn phone started ringing, and Right as my girl was about to get up I said to her" Don't "which she then totally ignored and came back a min later talking about, we're having company, and I shouldn't worry about getting dressed?

The last words that I said to my girl that damn night(After)I personally  got to witnessed what I did were "THIS TIME UR GONNA LOOSE ME FOR EVER"AS I TURNED MY BACK ON HER AND STAYED AWAKE ALL NIGHT CONTEMPLATING MY next MOVE!

END OF CHP#2

Chapter 3
The day(after)I found out that the mother of my kids had been unfaithful to me while I had been away doing time in Wisconsin literally fighting for my life (not)with a man,but with a damn Woman named" Jody "Just like the one's we used to sing about in the military during basic training,I decided to wake up real early, and cooked breakfast for the kid's, and got ready to face the decisions I had already made in my mind about my future with the mother of my kids and what I was going to do with the rest of my life!

See while the mother of my kids and the woman who she claimed to have been her" Best friend"Were out on what they( both )claimed to have been a "cigarette Run t"hat lasted approx (30-Min or So)Before showing back at the House all flushed/ red around the neck,and face like she always did after(we)would have sex,I decided to call my father up in Milwaukee, and made plans to return to Wisconsin' where I had unfinished business with the individuals that had"Attempted " to  frame me for multiple crimes while living with my father back in Feb,2000 and I had tried to defend his (Honor) against a bunch of  dirty/ coward /Rapist Ass fed Pigz that not only had brutally raped my father's (4-year old grand daughter),and had robbed him of 1/2 A"Million "Dollars in Cash ,But had also tried to killed him!

Anyway after dropping off the kid's at day care, and school, me and the mother of my kids decided to get something to eat at one of my ultimate Fav places where they served Southern style breakfast, and homemade biscuits sitting right in the middle of the ghetto of hwy-27th where I used to spent a lot of my time at when thing's at home weren't going right or I didn't have anywhere else to go!

Welcome to Hardee's,may I take ur order said the pretty young black female behind the counter to me ,and my girl as we stood there studying the menu hardly unable to keep our hands of each other!

Yeah I said to her, let me get 2-bacon,egg, cheese biscuits, 2-hash brown,  2-large oj's,and 2-Small black coffees'!

Will that be for here or to go said the young black female to me again?

For here I said to her, and as I was paying for our food with the little check money that I had made hustling during my incarceration time in Wisconsin,The young black female behind the counter made a comment about me and my girl, and how good we looked together as a couple which to me hurt very much to hear do to the decisions that I had already  made about my life, and how I was going to have to stand on as soon as I arrived at my parole officer office where I was now do to be at 9-Am!

While  we sat there eating our food which my girl was now eating of my plate like she always did in the past when I would either Cook at home or we would go out to eat,I couldn't help,but wonder(Why)We couldn't just get our shit together, and live our life's with out all the bull shit involved?

I mean I knew from day one all about her racist ass family specially her (father )who not only use to always call me a"NIGGER",But had also taught his younger Son's to do the same exact thing's which used to drive me fucking crazy,and sometimes I really hated "her" For her family racist ways specially when (we )would get into it,and she too would start calling me out of my name,but then when she wouldn't get around her family, and it was just (us alone )She was the most beautiful person that I ever knew besides  of course my best friend (Rip) Natasha f.Kellum who was also a "White girl"but never once got disrespectful or ever called me out of my name!

When we arrived at my parole officers office named ms.T.Keene whom I had known since the mid 90's after my release from prison, and 1st got put on parole, me,and the mother of my kids sat in  the car with the Ac on high blowing on us kissing each  very passionately until they finally opened the doors!

Before we said our good bye's that day I almost told my girl how I felt,and almost had a change of heart about my future plans which I now sometimes wonder" What If",But then  again since I've always been a True believer in fate regardless of the consequences I decided to say fuck it,and kept shit to my self!

Oh don't forget that u got to watch the kid's tonight Jeff, said the mother of my kids to me before getting out of the car and I remember  how pist off  I got after hearing her say this to me do to fact that once again she was gonna be spending time with not only her so called best friend (Jody), but also with other females that I couldn't stand to be around or wanted anything to do with do to their background ,and reputation which I had personally got to know back in the days when I was involved heavily in the dope game,and I knew what must of her so called friends were about!

Chapter 4 

After signing in at the parole office, and then  being escorted directly to the bathroom for a (piss test)where of course I tested negative for all drugs,I was then greeted  by ms.Keene,and taken to her office where I already knew how exactly was gonna go down for me!

So how is it going poff, said ms.Keene to me and before I could even sit down when I entered her office, and respond to her question, she started asking me about what happened to me in Wisconsin, no doubt probably talking about the Murder, and Shooting Case that I had been charged with as soon as I had arrived in Milwaukee back in January,2000 After transfer in my probation up there!

So before I ended up being interrogated by a member of law in for cement which I knew Ms.Kneene was a proud member of,and I against do to all my bad past interactions with them,I simply told her the Truth, and said I didn't do it!

I even went on to explained to her how prior to me transferring my probation up to Milwaukee I had been against it do to all of my father's Political affairs that he had going on at the time but because things had been so bad between me,and the mother of my kid's, I really had no where else to go which was  really the same exact story all over again now!

OK poff said ms.Keene to me,just make sure that u stay drug free,and refrain from any police contact, and check in with me every week,I'll let u know what ur parole officer up in Milwaukee Say's about u moving back to Wisconsin!

On my way out the door I ranned into one of my other expo's,A steroid muscle freak that I had back in the day's, and as soon as he saw me he too started asking me  questions about what had happened to me up in Milwaukee?To which I then responded by only telling him that it was none of his business, and continued walking out the door with out even missing a

 pimp in my step!

Once outside I light a Newport,and started  walking the 1/2-A mile or so distance to the nearest gas station on hwy-40 Where I then attempted to call the mother of my kid's in order to see if I could get a Ride back home and was told that she was with a client, and wouldn't be free until 2-pm!

I also attempted to call other people that I knew in order to get a ride home,and I was told that most of them were either at work or unable to do so!

I then remembered that I had memorized one of my ex cell mate's at the Marion county jail( Raymond Casanova's) girlfriend phone#  only known to me at the time as"Princess "which I then decided to call immediately, and finally got somebody to come pick me up!

Hello is princess there I asked the sultry voice at the end of the other line,and right away( I knew) that I had her when I started asking her  questions about her man,and not only did she literally started denying him,but also decided to throw him under the bus by stating that he was now away in prison doing time for what she claimed were do to her own actions against him!

Now if I would've been paying attention to the obvious sign's that were going on all around me  that day when princess(aka) Heather colandrea attempted to pick me up at the gas station, and ended up going to the wrong place,I swear that I wouldn't be where I'm today!

An hour later when princess finally decided to show up at the gas station where I was at she definitely knew how to make her precense felt when she showed up in a silver late 90's four door 4/4 Jeep Cherokee blasting one of my fav song's at the time by snoop dog/mater.p called" down ",and had every body that was there including some construction workers that were eating there lunch sweating her like the true princess that she was portraying to be!

But the true challenge came when she pulled up Right next to me,and I opened her door,and with out even saying a word to each other, she drove off like a true gangster making everyone there jealous as hell!

As we drove off Right away I noticed how sexxy this Chic really was,and how her (cold blue eyes )kept checking me out from head to toe, as I did her,and her thick thighs kept ridding up her short summer dress which I was now loving very much!

Finally when the song had gone off,we started talking about( what we're gonna be doing,and where we're gonna be doing it at)Which to me sounded perfect at the time,that was of course until we picked up one of her Friend's which was one of my homeboys girlfriend's named" Red Cap"That I knew from the hood,and doing time in the county,and we're sitting in her jeep with the ac blowing on us (High as a kite) from all the damn weed we had been smoking since she had picked me up,and out of no where (She)Started talking about how she couldn't take another broken hart with real tears falling down her face as if this woman had really Been hurting at the time!

Now a sucka I've Never been,but I don't know if it was all the weed that I had been smoking that had me feeling some type of way specially  with just being released from prison and going through all the baby Moma drama that I was going through, but I swear that I fell for this bitchez game and literally felt sorry for her ass to which I then responded by hugging/kissing her,and promising her that I would (never) break her hart again!

Now I know that I should've Ranned the other way as soon as I heard this (Crazy bitch )break down the way she did that day,but instead I took her to her place at yum yum tree's apt.complex of the Blvd right by where my mother use to live,and I fucked her all night long!

I can still remember the purple see through Victoria secret neck lage,along with the purple thong panties/Braw that she was wearing that day as she came out of the bathroom, and literally got on top of me,and rode me like I've never been riding before!

We licked,sucked,and fucked  each other all night long, then when I couldn't go anymore, she went into the bathroom, and got a cold washcloth and wiped me down from head to toe!

That was the exact type of treatment that made a mother fucka like me fall for a woman like her!

Sometime during the early morning hours of the night,I remember waking up,and literally puking my gut's out from all the damn alcohol/drugs that I had taken that night,and possibly even from all the freaky sexx that I had,then I remember thinking about my girl,and kid's, and breaking down crying quietly in the bathroom thinking to my self what the hell did I  had just done knowing damn well that I shouldn't be around this type of weman let along alcohol/drug's!

The next morning before leaving Heather's apartment, she invited me to spend the up cuming holiday weekend (labor day)with her and her father James colandrea down in vero beach,fla where she claimed he owned a beach house mansion, and whom she assured me was some sort of (mob bozz )that would in fact like me very much do to the similarities of  our father's being both that of"Sicilian"Race!

Anyway I ended up turning down Heather's invitation do to the fact that prior to my released from the Marion county jail I had promised my girl that I would accompany her to Maryjane's up coming labour day weekend wedding where she was a bridesmaid, and had also promised me"freaky sexx"at the (18th-hole)at the golf course where the wedding was rescheduled to take place at.

On the way to the mother of my kid's crib,me,and Heather smoked another blunt,and agreed to catch up after the holiday weekend, then she dropped me off,and not only did I forget my Newport's in Heather's jeep but now I remembered that I didn't have a key to get inside so I literally had to crawl through a very small window while all the neighborhood watched!

Once inside I called the mother of my kid's at her job to let her know that I was alive, and hopefully she wouldn't be so mad at me for leaving her hanging the night before!

Thank u for calling gee gees hair saloon, how may I help u said the voice on the other end of the line?

Yeah I said let me talk to Kim,tell her is the father of her kid's calling!

And with that she was on the phone in 30-Seconds or less!

What's up I said to her,and she responded just as I had taught her to do in Spanish (Nada)!

Then as soon as she started asking questions about where I had been, I simply responded by telling her "with some homeboys", and the only question that she asked next was are u OK?,to which then really hurt me to hear because instead of bitching at me she was now showing me how much she truly did care!

I then started playing a movie, and I remember hearing the sound track by Marc Anthony ( I need to know)playing in the back ground so I then decided to turned it up really loud so the mother of my kid's could also hear it, and that seemed to have gotten her attention because right away our conversation went directly to the subject of Jody,and how we're gonna be spending Fri night with her,and her family to which I then responded by only turning up the music really fucking loud before finally hanging up the phone on her!

I then got down on the floor, and started Doing diamond push ups,squats,back arms,and sit ups for about an hour straight before jumping into the shower and prepared my self for what I all ready knew was gonna be a very long night!

End of chp#4

Blood of  slave Heart of a king chp#5

Anyway that Fri night after the mother of my kid's showed up at home from work,we decided to go to the local mall on hwy-200  for dinner, and buy some clothes for me to Wear for the up coming labor day weekend wedding which I was now dredging do to the fact that I knew in my hart (something)Terribly was gonna go down!

While shopping at JC pennies for an outfit for me ,I remember having to put my hands on my son jerred when I kept  teling him to stop picking up stuff from the selves, and throwing them on the floor, I can still remember (the hurtful look that my son had in his eyes afterwards!)

Afterwards we all went to eat at a new crio restaurant where I remember buying some beans/Rice,along with some yellow plantains, and pork,and having my little girl sit on my lap,and eat my food together!

Then on the way out the mall I remember seen some punk azz dudes drive by me,and my family throwing up( Gang Signs)To see if  I was plugged to which I only Re-Acted by throwing my( hands up)As in a What's up type of way,and as they were driving off,I remember my girl getting really pist at me,and asked me(Why)I had to be the way I was?

On the way to Jody's house,I remember trying to talk to my son in order to make peace between us,but he kept Ignoring me,and wouldn't talk to me at all!

Then we stopped at the local Abc-Liqore store where I remember buying a 12-Pk of Corona beer,and some blunts for what I already knew was gonna be a very long night!

Once we got there right away I was introduced to Jody's husband, and her kids,and while we're playing cards(Spades)Which I had to be the once to teach them all how to play,my girl started flirting with Jody right in front of my face,So I decided to play the same game,and started flirting with Jody too which then made my girl get real jealous and started giving me dirty looks to which I then of course re-acted by laughing at her and continued doing my thing all night long including  while on the dance floor with Jody bump/grinding, and my girl's own attempt with Jody's husband which I looked at like a fucking lame!

Finally after smoking a 1/2Dozen blunts,and all the beer that I could drink,my girl had finally had enough, and told me this exact words,(Let's Go)To which I then insisted on driving home drunk/Stone,and my girl had to intervene telling me no way for which I was very thankful for!

Anyway when we got home, and put the kid's to bed,the mother of my kid's insisted on getting on my case about flirting with Jody for which I found very od  to do because she was the whole reason (Why)I started flirting with her on the 1st place,but since my girl is (100%Irish )when she's drinking, she insisted on picking a fight with me,and pretty soon things got out of control very quickly!

Like always when we would get into a fight she started calling me a"Nigger",And then told me to get out even doe I was already in my boxer shorts trying to go to sleep on the couch just so I could get away from her,but (again )Since I do believe that because my girl does come from (generations )of"Racism "Which even to this day almost( 18-yrs)After the fact she still insist on using that fucking word" Nigger"Every time that we fight in order to try,and belittle me,and make her self  feel like she's

Superior then,I believe that what happend next she did it only to show her power over me!

See when I kept laughing at her for acting like a spoiled rich white girl that couldn't hurt me with neither her fist or words,She then decided to literally rip my boxer shorts Right off my body while I laid down on the couch, and  got on Top of me and (Fucked me )in a way that she was showing me not only who was really in control, But also that she was gonna take the dick regardless of how I felt about her at the time!

Not really sure if I would call this(Rape)Or not do to the fact that at the time I was very much turned on,and even enjoyed what she did to me,it wasn't until after the fact that she made me feel worthless because not only did she not kissed me during the whole act or showed any real affection tourch me!

It was always just about the sexx with her, and nothing else!

 See Even to this day I can still remember her always talking about my Big black dick,and how much she loved it inside of her or how much she loved to suck it,But then every time we would get into a fight it was always u fucking Nigger ,(S.M.H.)!

End of chp#5

Blood of a Slave,Heart of a king, Chp#6

Sat morning labor day weekend, when I woke up sometime around 10-Am,The mother of my kid's had left  already to her own mother's House to drop the kid's off so we could attend Mary Jane's wedding later on that day,So I decided to jump in the shower to get ready, and out of no where (Jody) decided to show up,and literally came into the bathroom,and pulled the shower curtain back talking about she was there to give me a hair cut,As I stood there  butt ass naked with my dick Now semi hard washing my body!

Now(If)I would be been a dirty mother fucka like the mother of my kid's always claimed that I was I simply would've done like I believed she was doing  to me behind my back and went ahead,and fucked this slut like she was pacticly begging me to  do,But because I'm a man of principal that never did could stand (trailer park trash,)I did as I've always done when confronted with such situations, and shut this bitch down,and instead I decided to play her ass,and got all kind's of info from her!

As soon as I got this bitch by her self while cutting my hair outside on the porch wearing only my boxer Short's just to show her  Ass I wasn't afraid or intimidated by her precense, she decided to throw my girl under the bus by  1st telling me that they weren't that close of friends, and that when they had 1st met she couldn't even stand her!

Then when questioned about the status of their relationship weather or not they were More then just friends, she told me that she would tell me the whole story when we got to the wedding later on that day!

Then the mother of my kid's decided to show up,and we all got ready to go to the stupid wedding where I knew something terrible was gone go down!

On the way there which was approx (60)Miles away or so at some fancy ass country club in the middle of no where, we 1st had to stop at Marion oaks housing to pick up Maryjane where she lived,then we stopped at the local Arbyss fast food restaurant where we got something to eat,then the mother of my kid's started driving taking all the back roads in order to avoid traffic which in my head I couldn't help,but wonder(How)She knew all the back road's so well  to this place specially when they went directly by one of my main enemies house nick named"Rafi "who was a Puerto Rican dude much older then I was that almost got me killed back in the days when I was heavily involved in the dope game as only a (teen ager),and he got jealous of all the $,Cars,Houses,and Weman I was getting while his old ass worked a 9/5 living in a 1-bedroom apt broke as fuck!

Anyway when we finally got there we're all sweaty from the hot summer Florida heat and my girls car not having any Ac,then as we're about to get out of the car this bitch Jody out no where decided to asked me in front of my girl if I ever fucked while high on cocaine?

I just gave the mother of my kid's a dirty ass look, and shook my head at this bitch as if letting her know I didn't fuck around!

Then while we're all inside the club getting dressed me in the Mans bathroom, and them in the females, I decided to go tell the mother of my kid's all about what this bitch (Jody)had said  about her prior to us leaving the house,but then when I got there,and I started asking everyone that kept coming out of the bathroom to get my girl, and All said that she wasn't anywhere to be found,I remember seen the color"Red"All around me As I personally went looking for her "Every where", and couldn't find her,So instead I went to the bar where I remember drinking about 2 or 3 (Jack on the Rocks),And then decided to go looking for her again which I ended finding outside smoking cigarette's with Jody. (Again) Looking all Red/Flushed all around the face/Neck area as if she had just had sex!

Now I felt something inside of me (break)And I remember feeling completely numbed inside, As I stood there watching her take pic's with everyone that was there at the wedding Except me which completely broke my hart and deep inside I knew that if I didn't leave I was gonna end up doing something I would probably regret!!!

During the ceremony which took place as the Sun was going down ,I remember looking  at this people that I knew neither cared/loved each other very much if not at all and yet in the eyes of others they had everyone fooled!

 So I asked my self(Why)Continue fooling my self with someone that act's like I don't even exist at all,and the only time(She)Is happy is when I'm fucking her" Dirty"Like the true slut that she was instead of  the Woman that I kept trying to make her be!?

Finally after the ceremony, and we're all eating our dinner which she did with the groom and bride,and me with Jody, along with some older cougar Chic that ended up telling all about there little 3-Way dike experience they'll have had during the mother of my kid's b-day back in Feb of that year and they had gone to a strip Club called,"Cafe Risqué "In Gainesville, Fla where they had paid a stripper to turn my girl out,and afterwards they had (All)Went home together!

I swear to god that' before this old bitch could even finished telling me her Story, I was already out of my seat chasing after the mother of my kid's as I seen her head to the woman's bathroom,and I followed right bejind her literally kicking the door completely off its hinges,As (Once Again) I remember seen( Red) all around me,As I  knock her out completely with one Punch, and I started kicking, and punching all over her body like some dude I was fighting instead of the woman that I had come to love so very much!

End of chp#6

BLOOD of a SLAVE, HART of a KING chapter 7 thru 10

Since writing the last chapter of my story I had to take some time off in order to gather my thoughts, and reflect on my actions of that day back in labor day weekend of 2001 Which as I've said a (1000- Time's )in the past  every time  that I've"tried "To even Talk about this issues they've always Left me Shaken to the Core/Almost Speechless Unable to Finish Telling my Story!

Also since then (my kid's)Who were absent from my life since 2018 do to me,and their mother falling out over some" Racial "Comments that were made by her to me last year when I told her (To Get Her Head Out Of Her Ass,And Pay Attention To Our Son)who was going through some personal things at the time While living all Alone in Ky,Which Of Course Then Caused Her To (Re- Act) As always,And told me that I sounded  like a  "Fucking Nigger" ,Her Words Exactly!

 Recently came back Into my Life Causing me Now to be Afraid that I'll (Hurt them Again )once They'll Read  All This,And end up loosing them for good this time?

With that being Said Please Understand that my Intentions when writing my Story Have Never been to Intentionally Hurt (Anyone)Other Then to Exposed those who have purposely hurt me,and my family for Year's Now Over What I Call Were Racial ,And Social Injustice  Issues Which I've always kept quiet about In order to"Protect "Those I've loved the most Until Now!

U have to be blind,dumb,and Stupid  For people Not to See what's Really going on All Around this Country Today with the Same exact issues that got me put in Prison" 18-Yrs"Ago,And even doe I'll be the 1st one to admit that I'm also Not with out fault here when I literally abandoned my kid's back in 2001,Just so I could go on live the so called"Street Life",This also does not give the right to anyone to have (framed me),And taken my life away unjustly  the way they did Simply B-cuz of a bunch of Crooked Azz Copz Refused to their job properly!

Anyway that day after putting my hands/Feet all over the mother of my kid's do to the thing's that were said about her by her own So called Friends, we decided to leave the wedding, and while we're all getting in the Car,The mother of my kid's decided to Return the favor,and started punching me all on my face while sitting in the front seat of her car,and Jody sat in the back!

Now I can't say that I blame her for what she did,and as a matter of fact in my hart I know that I deserved everything that I got that day  from her as she unleashed the Irish white girl on my latino ass,But the one thing that I'll Never forgive her for is what she did Next!

See instead of hitting her back,and end up going back to jail on some domestic violence bogus Ass charges which I've never been to jail for in my life,I simply decided to get out of the car,and started walking under the Rain the 60-Miles or so that I was away from home while her/friends all drove by me yelling all kinds of Racial insults at me!

I can't even remember how many times in the past I had done this same exact thing that I was now doing in order to avoid going to jail or to simply get away from her crazy Azz!

One time back in 1997 While pregnant with my daughter, and we're (only) arguing driving by the Marion county jail,I can still remember how she threaten to pull over at the jail,and tell the copz that I was beaten her up,to which she then asked  me if I knew what (they)Meaning the cop's did to"Niggers"Like me that beat on pregnant " White Weman"?

(Again) Back in 1999 while I had been living in Chicago with my best friend (Rip)Natasha f.Kellum,and I kept trying to get my shit together, Out of No where the mother of my kid's Started calling me again like she always did when I would start dating someone New and started promising me marriage talking about"Family ",Which of course then made me Re- Act like I had always done So  in the past when confronted with this type of subject and caused me to hurt Lot's of innocent weman that would try to love me including my best friend  Natasha when I last saw her alive  in the summer of 1999,and I left her,and her son Nico (both) Completely broken hearted,only to end up back in jail down in Florida when the mother of my kid's ended up calling the cop's on me telling them that I had tried to kill her!

See what happened was that on my very 1st day back in Florida, the mother of my kid's decided go out,and stayed out All night long making me look like a complete fool in front of the whole neighborhood at the projects where we lived at the time called (sudden place),until the next morning when she finally showed up with a bag full of" Dirty"Clothing including a pair of white panties full of(Blood/Cum)!

So Hell yeah I did go a little Crazy  on her sorry Azz when ever I saw this type of slutty behavior coming from the woman I loved/sacrificed everything for,but Never once did I even put my hands on her for her to have snicked out of the apartment 1st thing in the morning and called the cop's behind my back all while on the phone with me pretending nothing was wrong,And the (Swat team) knocked down the front door,and took me away to jail on some bogus ass charges that I never even committed!

 That day As I walked under the Rain in the Hot Florida Summer not really knowing weather or not I was gonna end up being picked up by the Racist/Red Necks central Florida Cop's which knew me very well by now,and hated my guts for dating a(Couple) Of "Married" Ex-Female Copz that worked at the Marion County Jail Where I had done plenty of time at,I swear to god  that he must've felt my Pain all the way in his Soul that day as I walked not really knowing where I was going or what I was doing 1/2 Drunk on Whiskey because I must've only walked  only a couple of miles or so before some fine ass female ended up picking me up,and drove me all the way to my front door even beaten the mother of my kid's home!

Now what I did next is something that I've always struggle with since then, and have often wondered what if?

See when I got home that day after the wedding, I sat all alone in complete darkness contemplating killing the mother of my kid's for all the hell She,and her Racist ass family had put me through all the year's we dated  off/on since we 1st met back in the fall of 1993,(Why)I chose Not to do so is something that I've always Wondered about ,for only god knows the extent  of the (injuries) that this so called woman have caused not just to me,but also to my family,and even my own daughter (Grace )whom she,and her Racist Father Rejected when 1st born do to the Color of her Skin,kinky hair,and obvious (African) decent which are the true reasons (Why)they've always hated me!

Anyway when the mother of my kid's finally made it home that night with that bitch Jody still tagging along,I ended up tearing her clothes completely off her body,and decided to return the favor as she had done to me the night before, and we had really Rough Sexx!

I know that I got her pregnant that night because I came inside of her on purpose just as I had done so when I got her pregnant with my daughter back in 1996,and she had came over to my house literally Crying/drunk talking about how much she need it to tell me something that would for ever change the way I felt about her?

End of chp#7

BLOOD of a SLAVE, HART of a KING chapter 8

Sun morning, I woke up sometime around 9-am,and the 1st thing that I did was look for the mother of my kid's all around the house Unsuccessfully Now thinking that I was going back to jail!

Hello Mrs.Sheryl,I said to my girl's mother as soon as she picked up the phone?

I must've Sounded really worried over the phone because Mrs.Sheryl( the Only person in that whole family that was always kind to me,and Never showed me any of that Racist shit)Told me to calm down because Kim was already on the way back  home with the kid's!

When they got back I remembered literally breaking down in front of my kid's as(We)Sat alone in the porch while my daughter grace rode the bouncing horse that my best friend Natasha had bought for her for one of the previous Christmas, and my Son Jerred Sat in my lap trying to explain to him how he had to be the Man of the house Now that I had to leave again!

I'll Never forget that day as long as I live!

Afterwards I remembered going inside the house, and while we're eating breakfast, The damn phone started ringing, and as the mother of my kid's started talking I realized that it was Maryjane on the phone talking shit about me demanding payment for the bathroom door that I had knocked off its hinges the night before!

Now I swear on everything that I love that (If) would've simply heard the mother of my kid's stand up for me,and defended my damn Honor Against this other (Suburban Hood Rat)That I had known for most of my life,and I knew  in my hart Was No Fucking good either,I probably wouldn't have done what I did next,And probably would've Stayed!

But because the mother of my kid's did Neither one of the Other, I jumped on the phone Right after she got off it,and decided to call up"Heather" Just to show her that I wasn't playing any game's with her to which of course she then Responded by literally snatching the phone off my hands,and throwing it against the wall!

But not before I left a message on Heather's phone urging her to come pick me up at my (B-M)House,and that I looked forward to Spending time with her!

Anyway about an hour later I gave the mother of my kid's a choice to either take  me to my own mother's house where Heather could then come pick me up,and she wouldn't have to be( Exposed) to seen her in person Or Heather her self could come all the way to where we lived,and

(Fuck all )about how she felt about me moving in with another brand New Chick!

Now I know that what happened next must've Broke the mother of my kid's Heart into a Fucking(1000)Pieces which in my head were my Exact intentions do to her own ultimate betrayal against me,But for me to have Exposed my own kid's to my violent behavior It's something I should've Never done!

Of course she chose the latter choice that I had given her for if is one thing that I've learned about the mother of my kid's is that she much rather die,and Spend Eternity in hell ,then to Ever be Exposed As the True insecure/Scarry Woman that she Truly is!

On the way to my mother's house we got into a big ass fight,and instead of hitting the mother of my kid's, I ended up Punching the damn dashboard of the Car So hard that I literally put a big hole in it causing my kid's to get scared, and my daughter started Crying just like she had done the Very 1st Time we picked her up from daycare, and I had held her in my Arms After being absent from her life for almost 2-long Yrs!

Since I started writing this chp of my book earlier in the day I've had to stop numerous times after breaking down/Crying my eyes out thinking to my self how the hell I could've Ever been So Fucking Selfish and done what I did to my kids!

Shit got So bad on the way to my mother's house  that day that we literally had to pull over,and decided to go grocery shopping at the Publix Supermarket just so We could All calmed down!

Anyway when we were done,and the mother of my kid's drove me to my mother's House, we said good bye in the worst way then we had ever done so in the past Right as Heather decided to pull up on us!

End of Chp#8

chapter 9

That Sun afternoon As I said good bye to my girl,and kid's at my mother's Crib in one of the worst Way's that I could've ever  imaginings doing so including when we made love in the shower prior to leaving the house,and I told her this exact word's,( That was the last time that I Ever Fucked u),As I  remember walking Out of the shower,And hearing her soft Cries/Moan's,Heather then decided to show up at that exact moment

 in her Brand New jeep playing the music really loud Attracting my girl's attention causing her to start her Car Up,and Halling ass out of there leaving me standing there watching her,and my kid's drive away unto the unknown as she always did in the past!

I then reluctantly introduced Heather to my mother who Never really  did liked the mother of my kid's do to the fact that mother's always do know best,along with the fact that the mother of my kid's had (Once)put her fucking hand's on my mother over some"Jealous "Shit that had had Nothing to do with her,and yet did so anyway in order to punished me,and take her anger out on her!

Even then(We)Never Put her Sorry ass in jail or even pressed any type of charges against her,and yet every time that she got the chance to get (Revenge)Against me or my Family,She Never missed the chance to do

 so!

Anyway after I explained to my mother what had taken place between me,and the mother of my kid's, She gave me a Hundred $ Bill Just So I could pull my own weight with Heather, and she wouldn't feel like she was taking care of me specially since what she had told me about her ex-boyfriend (Raymond Casanova)Had been A True bum!

We then said our good bye's, and me,and Heather went straight to the projects to get a Couple of nickel bag's of weed from" Red cap"Who we both knew from around the way before going home,and spent the night  making love!

That night As me,and Heather layed in her bed together after we had made love,I remember hearing a song by Sade called (By ur side)Come  on the Radio,and Right away I thought of the mother of my kid's, and how she had sent me the name of this exact song while I had been away locked up in a Wisconsin prison literally fighting for my life,and told me how she would Never leave my Side!

End of chp#9C

  CHAPTER 10